I miss you..

Hi.. how are you feeling today...?

hmm.. things are repeating nowadays.. work, eat, sleep.. >,<"

lesser and lesser people wan play pool with me.. they say because i keep winning?? that means being good also means not good?? hmm... then i just play alone only...

When there is nothing to do, I start think a lot of things.. 

Missing someone is really hard.. I tried to stop thinking of her.. but everywhere i go and everything i do, i wish she was beside me..

I plan to continue study far away.. but the last time i said want to continue study, many bad things happen.. and it's all cause i wanted to do the things i want..

My family suffer a lot cause of me being selfish.. and i dont mind if everybody blame me.. i dont have the energy to fight back anything already..

Anyhow, maybe i should give up trying to make myself happy.. cause i realize if I'm happy, people beside me are sad.. i really dont understand..

Should i really be here...? I feel like running away.. 

i tried to solve the problems but they just wont give me a chance..

If i go away.. i feel my friends here will be more comfortable.. right...?