Feeling like an outsider.. as always..

hmm.. today past by kinda fast..

after opening shop at 10am, customer's just flooded in!

even though it's tiring, but i guess that's good for me cause of the commission pay.. =)

but.. it happens many times to me.. when i just stop doing things for a moment, i keep thinking bout all the things i did wrong..

I wonder why i do this to myself.. i cant stop blaming myself for hurting others.. I know my fault.. and I accept that i don't deserve to be treated as a friend.. I'm saying this truly from my heart..

and then, missing someone isn't helping to stop the pain in my heart.. I'm really not sure i can keep this feelings inside of for so long.. T-T

maybe one day, I'll tell you why..

Playing pool keeps my mind not to think bout the bad things.. and when the ball enters, it always amaze myself and my friends.. =)

they just cant believe that I am short sighted with the lens power of 400+!

to me, when i see the blur ball.. it just look bigger to me =P

after work, it's Dota time with some college friends.. I really like to listen friends voices all around me.. it makes me think i'm actually one of you guys.. =)

and for that.. i'm really grateful.. =D

thanks..

I love my friends.. everyone of them..