She is the cutest girl I know...

I keep thinking of her... >,<"
and I know it's a bad way to start my day... hmm.. but i just cant help it..

I've been waiting for her to update her blog for quite sometime now, I'm beginning to think she wont post anything anymore..
but suddenly..

She post some new photos of her self.. and is really really cute! (^o^)/")


erm.. she's really my cutest friend.. every time i see her, i still cant believe she accepts me as friends.. >,<"


but then.. also.. every time i realize how far we're apart, seeing her photos just hurts my heart..
I know i can never be more than friends.. but my body just cant help to fall for her..


I don't want to scare her away, but i wished she'll accept my feelings too.. 
hmm.. how come someone so perfect could ever be my friend...? why do I care for her so much more than others...? why do i feel pain in my heart when she's away...?

what's wrong with me...?


i'm trying to accept that i at least got a chance to meet her.. that should be enough..
I know i'm going away soon.. and maybe there's no chance to meet her anymore..
I'm just worried that i cant stop missing her..


I promised her that i wont disturb anymore.. but i really hate that promise..
so now, i'm just waiting... maybe 1 day.. she'll miss me........


I need to do things to make me not think of her.. I went clubbing with some friends today...
It helps for awhile..

please.. i don't want to miss you anymore.. please.......