I wish to leave everything behind..

hmm.. they say the past is a ghost that haunts you in the present..

I know what it means.. yesterday after the court session, I kinda wished i wouldn't have anything to do with my family anymore..I've hurt them more than enough already..

and my friends..

I'm really sorry for you to know me.. I tried to be kind and good, but i just don't know why I keep causing problems and make you guys feel not comfortable around me.. I see it in your eyes.. the way you look at me is different from others.. i hate it so much..

Why is it when i scream my lungs out, there's no one that hears me...?

I got too used to being alone that I don't trust there will be anyone will welcome me with open arms anymore..